I am human...

Through this journey, I have so quickly learned how human I really am.
I know that sounds funny at first... but think about it.
It is so easy to think of ourselves as normal, everyday people.
I am a stay at home mom, homeschool teacher, wife, daughter, sister, friend.
I am a Christian.
I go to church and Sunday school.
Pioneer Club.
Piano lessons.
The grocery store.
The Post Office.
Running errands.
The everyday ordinary person.

THEN...

I am told I have Degenerative Disc Disease, with two ruptured discs.
The only option is surgery, or live with the pain and have further, possibly permanent nerve damage!
My heart stopped for a spilt milli-second!

"Are they talking to me?", I thought briefly.
Yes. It was me. It was real.
I am human. I am not immortal.

They wanted to cut me open and play with my nervous system. They were going to go in and remove the two ruptured discs between C5 and C7 in my neck. Then the discs were to be replaced with bone graft from a cadavor. Next, the three vertebrae would be fused, and screwed together with a titanium plate put in. They were going to make an incision about and inch and a half long just to the right front side of my neck. Afterwards, I would wear a c-collar/brace for about three and a half weeks. I would not be able to go anywhere for at least two weeks. I would not be able to lift or carry anything over one pound. I would be sleeping in an upright position for weeks. My life would become very limited, but only for a while.

WOW! I was overwhelmed. What about our homeschooling? The laundry? Meals? Cleaning and the everyday tasks of life?

I felt heavy laden and burdened. I felt weary. I felt scared.
Yet, I knew I was not alone.

"All things have been handed over to me by my Father, and no one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and anyone to whom the Son chooses to reveal him. Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."

Matthew 11:27-30

The provisions began. My husband is home, to help and care for me and our son through the coming weeks. My Maman lives close and she would come to help with laundry and the house a few times each week. Our church and homeschool group signed up and provided an abundance of meals for the first two weeks of my recovery. Several dear friends offered to help in any way they could. Many, many family and friends prayed. Our annual homeschool testing was completed the day of the consult with the neuro-sugeon. We could keep up with reading and math practice. My concerns of everyday life 'stuff' being taken care of were calming. The necessities were falling into place. The needs were going to be met. The provisions were flowing abundantly!

He is an AWESOME GOD!

He is 'I AM.'

I am...

only human.